Headaches SUCK

I would not wish a headache on ANYONE!

Granted, I have never been shot or stabbed but I have been through child birth and headaches are the absolute worst pain I have ever felt. Not all headaches are alike but they all SUCK ASS!

Today I am struggling with cluster headaches. These hit you like a semi truck,  leaving you flattened in the road with zero notice, BUT, they leave just as quick as they come. Mine are like an ice pick going into the left side of my head. Sometimes I have to grab onto something so I don’t fall down. If I am already sitting chances are I will stop breathing (not a smart thing to do) and my whole body will nearly freeze up. They only last 15-30 seconds…which does not seem like long but it is a really long time for that level of pain. These ice picks will come and go all freaking day long. Really makes me want to be super nice, chipper, productive person today….NOT!

The truth of this day is like this…

I am sitting at my desk attempting to work at my Corporate America (CA) job and I have tears streaming down my face because of the frustration.  I want to do good work, I want to check things of my to do list but my brain just will not function at my normal level today.  Every so often I am literally stopped in my tracks with the head pain that whispers in my ear…hey girlie, don’t try to hide from me!  I am at my home office, it is lunch time, I could go lay down but what is the point?  I am not physically tired, sleep will elude me.  So, I sit here, wipe my tears away and try to do normal things in between the stabs of the ice pick.  I really just want to tell whoever is holding the invisible ice pick to Fuck Off!